I know this website is a pioneer. The talk around the house is about my brother and his girlfriend of 10 years, Lana. They are planning to get engaged and married soon. I don't know if he is trying to surprise everybody and make it a secret, but I will blow the secret today if that's the case.

Anyway, he and Lana have been talking about it for awhile now, and they plan to get engaged in June, and get married the following June 2005. You heard it here first, the breaking news. Anyway, I didn't even hear it from him. I was just brushing my teeth on Saturday morning and my dad rushes in and says "Did you hear the news? Your brother is going to get engaged in June." Dave didn't even tell me, I had to hear it from my dad, yeesh. But they've been planning it for sometime now. I can tell, because I know women plan their marriage from age 5. Girls go around dreaming of their perfect wedding dress, and have already written their Thank You speech at age 8. I thought he was going to propose and surprise her, but I think since their situation is different (she's still going to be in school and he just graduated), he wanted to make sure it was the right time.

The planning has already begun. Believe me, the planning is at a furious pace. So furious, it would make Vin Diesel and Paul Walker confused. Dave comes up to me yesterday and asks me if we have enough money in our Paypal account because he wants to buy their wedding cake topper off eBay. There are banquet menus all over the dinner table. Yes, there is even a tentative guestlist, which features relatives I never knew existed. I can't guarantee everybody will be invited, so far the list is around 300 guests, and that's a lot of names I will have remember.

Being the best man will be something...interesting. And I even wondered what kind of uncle I would be, because me being an uncle will happen lightyears before I become a father (I will save my thoughts of my future as a husband/father another day). I want to be everybody's favorite uncle. Yes, I suppose I will spoil my nephew or niece, but come on, it's not like I'm spending my money on anything better (I just buy baseball cards on eBay).

I've been thinking a lot about my own future since all this wedding talk has come up. It's hard to just concentrate on my 5 classes right now when I don't know where it will lead me. I just read Johnson's Xanga entry and agree with what he said, the workload is difficult. It's a tough feeling going to a community college because you're there trying to transfer. There is so little margin for error, because every grade matters. I think if I were in a "real" college, I wouldn't feel stressed as much because I wouldn't need to maintain my GPA above a certain level for 2 years. I wouldn't mind getting a job right now because I've been told that experience is crucial. My dad even gave me the OK to get a job as long as I can handle the work and school. Honestly, I think I could manage it because I'm "disciplined" and my brother tells me. But I've got this thing about failure, where I tend to walk away from situations where there's a chance I could be rejected. Maybe I need more challenges and face this fear. I enjoy playing the role of the underdog.

I suppose this concludes today's entry.