Went to the driving range with the guys yesterday. I was doing pretty bad. My golf balls were flying everywhere. Everyone agreed that my "Cougar ExPress" driver was garbage. My "Never Miss" putter was also pretty lame, but it did live up to its name on one occasion. Too bad Play It Again Sports closed down, because I need to sell my clubs for something and invest my money in another sport I'm better at.

At Volleyball, everyone was talking about their childhood memories, mostly in the elementary school years. I don't really think about those years too much. Honestly, my elementary school and middle school years are kind of blurred together. I sorta remember my high school years, although those were more meaningful to me. I wasn't the the nicest kid in elementary school. In fact, I did some pretty rotten things. I threw rocks at this russian kid and got in trouble for that. That was really the only time I ever got in trouble in elementary school. Another thing I remember was that I threw a quarter at a black kid's eye at my daycare center. I think this was in the fourth grade, so I did "know better than that". I didn't throw it very hard, luckily, and it wasn't like I was mad at him or anything, I was just playing around. He started to cry, and I felt really bad. He didn't go blind or bleed or need to go to the hospital or anything, but nobody should have a quarter thrown at their eye. In fact, I feel worse about it now than I did back then. He was pretty much an outcast at that daycare center; everyone made fun of him. I wouldn't say I was very mean to him compared to the other people, but maybe I was influenced by the people around me. I wish I could appologize for that day though, because it was just wrong of me to do that. I wonder if any of my actions from those years have impacted people significantly, because kids do remember things like that.

Another memory that came to mind was the fact that the school had a kickball tournament between all the classes. For some reason, I was actually picked to be on my class's team. It was a shock because I was a crappy kickball player, but I must've had some kind of charm on my classmates since they picked the team, especially all the ladies ;). I was pretty thrilled to be on the team though. I think I played second base or shortstop, I don't remember, because as a kid, I didn't know what the positions were. But I'm pretty sure I was the second baseman, because I remember throwing the ball to the third baseman and it overshot him and went into the benches behind him. Even as a kid, I was making fielding errors, geez. I know we lost the tournament to Jimmy Cheung's team. I didn't know him too well back then, but we'd end up being really great friends. Instead of trying to kick the crap out of the ball while the defense played back, he'd bunt a little dribbler down the line and always got on base. To this day, he tells me that was the secret to his success.

I don't really remember much else from elementary school. I did have a huge crush on a girl, but that type of puppy love never works out.

Middle school. What can I say about that. Those of you who heard my Bible Study message can get a feel about me in middle school. I was loserish back then.

High school was sorta odd too. Sometimes I wonder what it'd be like if my current personality was with me back then, because I do feel like a somewhat different person. I'm still a nerd and would probably be "studying" in the library with my giant whiteout dispenser. I don't know, somehow I feel like I'd do things differently if I got another chance, but maybe I'm just fooling myself into thinking that. I mean, I went to a lot of the dances, sporting events, etc. I made the friends I was meant to make. I guess when I look at a lot of the people from my high school now, sometimes I can be a bit envious of their life. Maybe I'm wondering what they did that I didn't do that got them the things that I'm missing in my life. I know it's wrong to covet what your friends have, but I think it's also human nature to do so. It's just so easy to want to change things in retrospect, but it's almost impossible to do those things in the present. Sometimes you work for your success, but a lot of it is also pure luck. I hope what I'm saying makes sense to you.

That's about all I've got. I guess I'll be back later to share with everyone my 2005 New Years Resolutions so you can push me to achieve them. Merry Christmas everybody.