The thing about this blog site is that it allows me to be honest with myself. I haven't really "poured my heart out" in a while. I'll at least make sure this entry is honest.

I'll start with my Cal Orientation last week. Berkeley has a huge campus compared to what I've been used to. It's going to take a while to know where everything is. I felt really out of place there, and I don't know how long the adjustment period is going to take, if it will happen at all. The people there are also intimidating, because everyone seems so confident and sure of themselves. There was even this transfer student who's my age bragging he could teach a class. You have to wonder whether these kids are cocky because they're trying to hide their fear, or because they really think they can succeed in this school. I'm trying to find a blend where I don't shy away from the challenge yet keep myself in check and know that my GPA is going to be nothing close to what it was at CCSF.

Math Camp has been going okay for me. I really do like hanging out with the kids and witnessing from time to time. I'm actually glad I don't have to teach any class this year, because it allows me to just wander each room. Little Kelly from 6A is mad at me because I told her I'd "be back", but I went off to go get lunch and ate in the teachers lounge. Then I proceeded to play some basketball with the workers. Today she got mad at me because I didn't hang out with her and instead had to work at the food area and serve the hotdogs because we didn't have enough workers for that. Now she says she hates me and isn't my friend. It's a little disappointing that you spend 4 weeks trying to be friends with someone, then they don't want to be your friend anymore. But then I started thinking. Here's what I came up with:

1. I'm going through the Superman Problem. The Superman Problem is that he tries to be everywhere at once, but no matter how many people he saves and no matter how good his intentions are, someone will always be pissed that he wasn't there for them. Also, the media turns his good actions on him and makes him look like a bad guy. I'm no Superman, but I have his Problem.

2. I try to be a good friend, but I don't know how much I'm suceeding in this. I'd like to think I keep my promises and I'm always there when people need me, but of course I can't possibly do this. So maybe if people expect less from me, they won't be let down.

I'll be heading to Canada for about 6 days now. The thing about travelling is that you know no matter how long you're gone, the world goes on without you. It's a very sad thought, but it's true. But then again you wouldn't expect people to just drop everything and wait for you to come back. The last two times I've went, I've found myself doing nothing but thinking and changing myself on how I see things. But when I came back, everything was still the same and it kind of destroys everything you tried to change.

I never want to leave on bad terms, which is why I think the day before a vacation is super important. I know my brother is one of those people who feels this way. You never know when you'll see someone again, and the last thing you want to do is have your last memory of that person be of a time you guys were fighting, or of a breakup, or of a petty disagreement.

I'll follow my own advice and leave on good terms now with a new cartoon. This one was inspired by and dedicated to my good friend Kenford Ko. Johnson also took the time to color this cartoon. Don't forget to click on the cartoon to enlarge it. Thanks for reading and take care.